I actually took a bag of chocolate I’d put in my shopping basket back on the shelf at the supermarket.
I actually stopped, thought about it, and realised I didn’t need the chocolate.
Then I headed back to work for lunch, and had my oats.
I know it’s only a little thing, but all those little things add up. And if I can do the good thing once, I can do it again.
I’m almost feeling ready to step back on the scales right now. Almost…
Maybe I stand a chance, after all.
10. OA fellowship: Read the section “You are not alone” pages 2-3, as well as pages 21-23.
Write about your feelings around getting help from other members in OA. Discuss with your 12 Day Sponsor. You may also want to start ringing some of the other members who wrote their names down.
I think the thing about overeating is that it’s a very lonely disease. We eat in secret. Those of us who binge or purge do that in secret too.
It’s hard to share that you have a problem. In this world we’re not meant to be addicts. As a wife and mother, I’m meant to be there for my family – for others. I’m not meant to need help myself.
What I’m liking about OA is I can talk openly about my problem. The members don’t judge, because they’ve been there themselves. They understand.
I’m happy to ask for all the help I need, but it’s not easy. Opening up about stuff that has always been closed off is difficult. I’m not used to talking to groups either.
I want to get better. I know I’m at the very start of my journey, and can’t expect to get better overnight.
However, I do feel like I’m on the right track. I’m starting to believe I can get better. I’ll need help, but I can do it.
I’ve missed a couple of days from being sick. So here’s the catch up.
9. Higher Power: Again refer to “Frequently asked questions and answers” (pages 18-26).
Write about your understanding of a higher power.
If you struggle with this, are you open to God standing for “G.O.D – Good Orderly Direction”?
Are you able to use this concept to help your recovery? Discuss with your 12 Day Sponsor.
This is a tough one for me. My logic brain clashes with my gut brain, and it’s not easy.
There’s also the issue of not really liking what goes on in so many churches. I don’t like the money side of it, and I don’t like the way the churches seem afraid to criticize anything that is politically correct.
But God, yes, I believe.
Am I willing to trust in God for my recovery? I’d like to say yes, but for various personal reasons, I don’t think God is particularly concerned with me or my wellbeing.
So I’ll trust in the goodwill of the group for now. Maybe I’ll learn to trust God for my recovery. But it will take time.
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Smoking versus Covid
People here in New Zealand must wear masks on public transport and on planes, regardless of whether they’ve been vaccinated or not.
This doesn’t make sense. If the vaccine works, why would you still have to wear a mask?
After all, you don’t need a mask to protect others or yourself, because you’ve been vaccinated!
And if the vaccine doesn’t work, why are all countries around the world moving towards compulsory vaccination.
Either it works, or it doesn’t. You can’t have it both ways.
I’m not against vaccination. But I am against being lied to by our government.
I’m also not a conspiracy theorist, but when the facts don’t add up but instead directly contradict each other, it begins to look like this whole worldwide covid situation is not about healthcare at all.
I prep my lunches. This is how:
I have a jar of quick oats that I keep at work in the kitchen.
Every lunchtime, I serve myself a half cup of oats into a bowl, adding a teaspoon of sugar (optional) and using hot water from the boiler to make them up. (They sit in the boiling water for about two minutes to cook.)
Then I add a dash of milk.
Done!
This method of meal prep means I always have food on hand at work for lunch, it costs next to nothing, and I can have a hot lunch every day.
Oats fill me up and they’re one of the healthier bulk foods out there.
The big advantage – beyond cost and convenience – is I don’t binge on oats. I eat, I’m done. I don’t crave more.
Every few days, when my jar of oats gets low, I take it home and refill it.
Meal prep for me isn’t just about finding something hot and healthy to have for lunch every day. It’s also about avoiding the pitfalls of local eateries and restaurants, where I might overeat. It keeps me on track. Plus, having a hot, filling lunch every day makes me much less susceptible to all the cakes and biscuits on offer at work.
Give it a try. It works for me.
fit, fed and fasted 