I’ve got another OA meeting today in a couple of hours.

I’m looking forward to it, which surprises me.

I’ve also done a lot of self reflection over the past week or so, and realised I need structure in my life with food.

I don’t think just ruling certain foods out will work for me, as there are too many exceptions where I won’t be able to resist, like food available at work and baking with kids. I could say no for a bit, but I know I’d eventually weaken and go crazy.

So I’m going to try two meals a day, with no seconds.

How that would look: I have my oats for lunch every day, but on Wednesdays when we have morning tea I have that instead of lunch.

In other words, structured moderation.

And yes, I am going to start weighing myself. Just once a week. Every week.

I’m just scared of getting on the scales right now. I don’t want to know what it says. Which is crazy, because the number – good or bad – isn’t going to change my reality of being overweight.

So that’s my challenges for this week: try to structure my meals, and to get on the scales.

I’ll talk about this at the group, and see what people say.

I also want to ask what has worked for them. It might work for me.