You know, I’ve realized something.
The only thing I used to look forward to was food.
I didn’t have any hobbies.
No travel, because of covid.
I wasn’t looking forward to shopping, because I couldn’t fit into anything.
I didn’t look forward to work (although I did look forward to the end of the day!)
In short, my life was lacking joy.
Does that seem old-fashioned? To think we humans would need something to look forward to in our lives?
I’ve realized I need a fuller life. No busier; fuller. Richer with people and friends and events and hobbies.
My life had become solitary, apart from my friends. I thought I needed space away from people, but maybe there’s some such thing as too much space.
I need things to look forward to.
I need change.