I just got back from my Saturday meeting. We had a newcomer, so we went back to the first step, which is admitting we are powerless over food.

It was good to talk about this admission and how it affects your mindset. It’s only once you admit you have a problem that you can start to fix it, after all.

I also weighed in for the first time in months. It wasn’t as bad as it could have been, but it wasn’t good. I’m in the obese range, which I knew. So my goal to start with – one day at a time – is to get back down out of the obese range to start with. I’ll worry about getting to my goal weight later. One step at a time.

Hmm…I’m starting to see how OA works.

The thing I like about OA is I’m not alone. When I share I can be honest, because others are being honest. I can face reality head on at meetings, which is what I need to do. I can ask for help, because it’s okay to do that.

I think I’ll keep going to OA.

Today wasn’t great, but it wasn’t exactly terrible. It could have been worse.

Food: A chai latte, KFC for lunch (2 pieces chicken, snack burger, chips, drink), a cookie, two lamingtons, steak and some rice, and a muesli bar.

Actually, looking at the list above, today wasn’t great, was it!

Normally I have oats for lunch, but my husband took me out as he had the day off. Hence the KFC. The lamingtons I brought home as a school fundraiser for the kids…hmmm. And the muesli bar was just because I felt “snackish” this evening.

However, despite it being a bigger than normal list, I didn’t binge. I ate reasonably thoughtfully. There was no gorging. So I’ll call it a win, because a few weeks ago that list would have been lots worse.

In other words, I feel like I’m improving.

I’ve had my share of lamingtons now. The rest are for the kids. And tomorrow I have OA, where I can talk this stuff over if I need to.

I’m feeling positive.