It’s been a rough week. I’ve felt headachy and sore, made worse by a visit to the dentist that left me swollen and bruised (two fillings replaced). Add to this an argument with my husband, and I’d really rather a do-over for the last few days.
I’ve had some successes, to be fair. A big one was bringing some lollies to work from home, and leaving them in the kitchen for everyone to enjoy and for me to avoid.
I’ve also managed to avoid most sweet stuff, and to begin to really figure out what my trigger foods are. Yes, it’s foods with white flour and sugar. Just like most people.
Apart from everything, though, I’ve just felt blaugh. Not sick, just not great. I haven’t focused on the twelve steps, but I have at least been doing a food plan every day for my sponsor, even though I’m not sticking to it brilliantly. I keep making the same mistakes over and over again.
I’ve realized I’m not really a breakfast person. I’ve tried for a few months now to have breakfast every day, but it’s been a bit hit or miss. So instead I’m going to try having fruit for breakfast, and leaving it to about 10:30. Either that, or I just haven’t found the right breakfast food yet. Eggs are great, but I’ve kept blowing them up in the microwave. Believe me, cleaning the microwave every morning and blowing your eggs up is enough to make anyone wish the day away! I’ve tried yoghurt too, but I find it’s almost a binge food, so I’m putting an end to that.
I’ll try doing eggs again. There’s got to be some way to get them right!
So yes, I’ve been in OA since July. I haven’t quit. I’ve lost some weight, but not as much or as fast as I want. It’s a slow process.
But I’ll keep on trucking on. I haven’t quit, and I’m happy with that. I’m doing okay.