It’s 5 am in the morning and I’ve had a rotten night.

I think I’m coming down with something. I’m achy and sore, and my skin is coming up in rashes that are really itchy.

I don’t know what it is, but I’m just feeling crud. I’m pretty sure it’s not covid though!

I’ve been eating a bit better, although I’m still sneaking the odd bit of chocolate, which I need to just quit and never eat again. It’s definitely one of my problem foods – I’m quite sure I could eat a kilogram of the stuff and still be looking for more!

Overall, I’m sticking to plan pretty well. I’m doing readings and listening to podcasts daily now, and most of my eating has settled into a healthy, sustainable routine. Not perfect, but way better than I was before OA.

The biggest area I’m falling down with is exercise. I’m just not there yet with it. I keep thinking I’d like to go back to the gym, but I don’t have the time or energy, plus we unvaccinated people are about to get banned from gyms in New Zealand. Yeah, that doesn’t make sense. But I’m certainly not going to join a gym only to be banned from it in a couple of weeks from now.

So I need to find exercise I can do daily that I can find the time and energy to do. I’m thinking walking to and from work. Walking to work is the easier part – I live at the top of a massive hill. But walking home would be tough, especially carrying my computer bag (which we have to take home every night because covid) plus handbag and other stuff from time to time. Typically I carry 2-3 bags with me thanks to this covid BS, and that’s not fun even walking the half a kilometer or so to the bus.

So I think I may start leaving my computer at work. Realistically, if (when!) we get another snap lockdown, I can always trot into work and get it before the close up. We’re at least usually given an hour or two warning.

The main hurdle I have to doing daily exercise is just time and energy. My work day runs from getting up around 7 to getting home around 5:30, then I cook dinner and I take kids out driving, go to my meeting or to my radio club 3 nights out of every week. I’m just tired all the time. Then on weekends I’m busy doing shopping, housework or garden renovations, and the time just disappears.

You’ve got to love feminism – we women are now equal enough to work 50 – 70 hours a week; before “liberation” it was more like 30 hours a week if that. I’d much rather go back to being an unliberated housewife and not being so exhausted all the time.

Anyway, this is a rambling, chaotic post, as I’m exhausted and the day hasn’t begun yet. Late night again tonight – radio club; I’ll be home around 10:30. I love radio but I need sleep. Trouble is, getting to sleep has been tough lately even if I didn’t go to radio.

Yep, I’m tired and grumpy. Good start to the day!